Yeah. I don't know what to say. Nothing important anyway.

The highlight of my day today. I cleaned my earrings. -.- I want something to do someone to talk to someone to hang out with plez!!! ok i'm done I mainly did this entry because I got tired of reading that last entry.

So I've decided to give up depression. That's right. Never again. I was depressed all weekend and Monday because I'm stupid and thought Jodie hated me. Well I know she doesn't hate me but maybe I've fallen out of her favor. Either way I don't want to be depressed and I won't let anything get me down again. I admit I like Jodie alot but I don't think she'll leave Russell. I didn't expect it and I don't see it happening anytime soon. So I can't do anything but be who I am and stop worrying. I care for Jodie and she says she does for me and if she really does then I'll really know how much she does eventually. Patience is a virtue that I must acquire...

On other news I've gotten back into Poetry The Beat Readers are the best Allen Ginsberg and his crew. I've gotta start reading it all again and I'm going to do a few pieces in that style. Hopefully they won't suck.

I feel naive and stupid. I long and don't get. I wait in a null existance that I'll get what I wan. But I've always known I'll never get what I want. Life just doesn't work for me. It's heredity. Oh well... I'm gonna go watch my fucking football game.

yeah.. i'm bored looking for good shower stocks of JUST a shower I don't want anyone in is but i've seen quite a few nekkid people now mostly guys ::shudder:: so I'm doing this survey!! Hoorah!

My name is: Tim
-nicknames: Mit, lil timmy, Zack, jodie called me sweetness once or twice
-sex: a couple of times oh wait.. Male
-birthday: Feb. 8, 1986
-star sign: Aquarius
-place of birth: New Orleans, LA
-current residence: Macclenny, FL
-hair color: Shit Brown
-eye color: light blue to gray sometimes
-height: 6'1"
-writing hand: Right

-BODY ILLS + SKILLS-

-do you bite your nails: yup
-can you roll your tongue: that too
-can you blow smoke rings: don't smoke
Can you blow spit bubbles: wanna see?
-can you cross your eyes: sure can
-tattoos and where: Not yet, getting a few
-do you make your bed daily: hahaha you're funny
-what’s sexiest on a guy: His clothes
-what’s sexiest on a girl: Hair, lips, hands, eyes
-do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it: Twirl
-what utensils do you use eating pizza: My hands
-do you cook: only the basics, grilled cheese, mac-n-cheese, cereal, spaghettios, anything with instructions really.

-GROOMING-

-do you shower/bathe: now why would I do that? of course I bathe
-how long do these showers last: well if I had a bad day around 30 mins and I bathe normally 10 mins and it's a shower
-hair drying method: Towel and shake
-do you swear: Like a sailor
-do you pee in the shower: Only in the shower not the bathe that would be icky!!
-what color is your bedroom: brizzown!
-do you use an alarm clock: nope
-name four things or people you're obsessed with:
1. Jodie
2. Music
3. Graphic Design
4. Sleep
-What’s your sleeping position: On my side usually my right side and I prefer having Jodie in my arms makes it more comfortable.
-in hot weather do you use a blanket: a sheet
-do you sleepwalk: No
-do you talk in your sleep: when I was little I used to sing in my sleep if you turned on the radio but I think I grew out of it.
-how about the light on: neffer!

-WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU-

watched bambi: years?
cried: Bout a month ago
talked on the phone: Last night to Jodie's mom cuz Jodie wasn't home and never called me back
read a book: today in class

-MUSIC-

is music important to you: YES!
do you sing: All the time
what instruments do you play: Guitar, and I can play the radio really good you should here it sometime.
what do you think of Eminem: He should be lynched.
in your opinion what band is the best of all time: Coheed and Cambria!!!!

DO YOU LIKE-

pop music: some <.< >.>
rock music: I guess so... ::sigh::
punk music: Yes
rap music: no.
hip-hop/RBh: only outkast
jazz: some
classical: yes
new age: not really
hardcore: ::swoon:: <3
indie rock: yesh
emo: YUP!

-WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX-

What do you notice first?: Hair, eyes, hands, throat
Do you have a crush on anyone? Hmm I dunno I might be rethinking that j/k
Easiest to talk to: Jodie, Mana

-DO YOU/ARE YOU-

Could you live without the computer?: NO!!
What’s your favorite fruit?: Plums!
What hurts the most? Physical or emotional pain?: Emo Pain
Trust others way too easily? stupidly yes I do...

-NUMBER-

Of times you have had your heart broken? once
Of hearts you have broken? I think maybe 2 not sure
Of girls kissed? wow. uhm a lil over a dozen maybe?
Of boys kissed? 1
Of drugs taken illegally? Flexoril, Xanax
Of tight friends? 3, Jodie, John, Kat
Of CD's owned? 3, 2 takingbacksunday, 1 coheed
Of scars on my body? 5 if you count my crooked spine as one.

-OTHER THINGS-

I know: what I want but don't know how to get it
I want: contentment
I have: a lot of potential
I wish: Russell was single
I hate: the ability to hate
I fear: being alone to much longer
I hear: soft keyboard taps, and my heartbeats
I ache: where noone can see it
I care: about those close to me
I'm always: expecting the worst but preparing for the best
I dance: in public
I cry: not as often as I want too
I write: to get out the ache that noone can see
I confuse: myself and possibly jodie
I can usually be found: on AIM
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing: on multiple occasions

-ARE YOU A...-

Wuss: only if I'm not defending my views or someone I care about
Gang member: hahaha next
Daydreamer: all day long
Alcoholic: nope!
Freak: so they call me
Brat: when I was little I was a Spoiled Brat
Sarcastic: my alter ego
Goody-goody: no point in it
Angel: Dark
Evil: Jodie says I am ::
Friend: always
Shy: when I'm in the mood to be
Adventurous: oh yes
Intelligent: you better believe it!

-SELF ANALYSIS YOU PROBABLY DON'T WANT TO DO-

Your best feature [personality]: sense 'o humor I'm a bit of a funny guy.. no really I am ::Sigh::
Most annoying thing you do: put myself down
Biggest mistake you've made this far: not have faith in myself?
Describe your personality in one word: Pacifist(sp?)
A smell that makes you smile: Jodie's vanilla-ness
A city you'd like to visit: London! It's so dreary
A drink you order most often: Dr. Pepper
The music you prefer while alone: Coheed or Thursday
A TV show you watch regularly: I don't watch tv regularly but if I did I would have to say it's probably Law and Order or Sunday football games
You live: I live everyday just to see Jodie in class and hope that she'll take me home again

xxx